Usually when it comes to thinking of new blog content, I list out different topics I want to write about in any given week. This “list” includes an ongoing section of recipes that I want to make sure I don’t forget about. Same with workouts. Sometimes the list includes things I want to make sure I mention by a certain date, and I always have ideas floating around for future posts that don’t necessarily have any kind of “timeline” on them.
However, I’ve noticed that one topic I added to my list… at the beginning of the year… to write about at the beginning of the year… is still on the list. And I keep asking myself, WHY haven’t I written about what my goals are for 2013 yet?
I am notorious for being a New Year’s sucker. Over-committing to a ridiculous amounts of goals. Making an enormous bucket list that starts out as something fun, but turns into self-ridicule for never crossing out everything on it. I mean, look at my 2012 New Year’s goals post… it’s full of goals galore! And that was great… for 2012. At that point in my life, I was in SUCH a career/life rut that I needed to set those goals for myself to feel motivated at changing my situation. And I accomplished a lot, don’t get me wrong. A whole lot. I’m proud of myself for doing everything I did, and I know that starting the year with intention had a lot to do with my successes.
So why haven’t I felt as motivated to set goals for 2013?
While I do have things I want to do this year (grow the wellness program at work, finalize my plans for the Wellcoaches certification, run another 5k, get out of my comfort zone, focus on one thing at a time, grow my name and this blog), I honestly just feel tired. And while I can certainly still have all these intentions in the back of my mind, I think feeling this way is pretty telling about what my real focus should be this year.
If you are someone like me, the only speed you know is “go.” I’m always running from one job to the other, only to come home and tackle all the things on my to do lists (yes, lists) that “have to get done.” My “me time” is cleaning or blogging. I never just stop. And if I do, I can’t stop for more than a few minutes without getting up to organize something that “should” get organized. If I take a vacation day just because, I run a billion errands instead of just sit around the house with a cup of coffee and a good book. Now that I think about it, I can’t even tell you the last time I read a good book!
Am I on this never-ending hunt for the perfect balance between everything I do? I love everything I do, but I’m always looking for new ways to keep up with both jobs while maintaining a healthy diet, getting the right amount of exercise, having enough downtime to spend with friends/family, and so on. Maybe if I just stop worrying about trying to do everything so perfectly all the time, balance might come a little more naturally. Maybe I’ll get more sleep and feel less overwhelmed. I mean, here I am trying to motivate all of you day in and day out to live a healthy lifestyle, but how healthy can I really be when I feel stressed so often?
It’s obvious that slowing down is the answer to my issues. Maybe then I’ll find stability, which I think is the answer to finding real balance. Doing things perfectly and productively 100% of the time is unattainable and unreasonable. It leaves me feeling like I can barely keep my head above water, and it’s just not healthy. I don’t HAVE to get through every email every day, or fold every bit of laundry the second it comes out of the dryer. That’s not what is going to matter down the line. What will matter in five years are all the little things. Whether that be a little extra sleep, an extra glass of wine, an extra hug, or maybe just that hour spent laughing over nothing.
Slowing down doesn’t come easily to me, but someone recently suggested comparing this to exercising. As you all know, I’m very self-driven in ensuring I get to the gym and exercise enough. I know that to keep my body looking how it does and at its healthiest, I need to put in the work and concentration and time. But the same goes for mental health too. In order to keep my MIND at its healthiest, I need to put in the same work and concentration and time. Most of my goals for this round of Best Body Bootcamp have revolved around this. I’m learning to delegate. I’m learning to say no. But I have a long way to go. And that’s why this year, in 2013, I have resolved to take a step (or a few) back and commit to simply finding balance.
Does anyone else struggle with finding balance in their lives? I would love to hear your stories. Please share any advice or tips you have in the comments!